--Shouldn't hope too much--

Hi guys! Long time no update!! I'm in Yogya right now but luckily my dad brought a laptop, so I could lend it and use it... 

*I'll post stories from Yogya later...

Well, this post is kinda private but... I should keep post it... Why? cause I don't have any diary to write my feeling down, but I can't keep lying to myself, I need to be honest to my own feeling... But, I'll keep it as private as I can

This post is about my ... (you'll know it later...)

I think I always fell in love with a wrong person..

My first love (I couldn't tell his identity) was a really great person... He's smart, funny, and he's got everything I am searching for... But he's too popular and a lot of girl liked him too, I don't know if he liked me, but I think he didn't... well, it's ok, and I knew it's impossible...
There were some rumors that said he likes me, but I knew that's impossible... Well, I shouldn't trust rumors...

And now... after about 2 years...I fell in love with another person (I don't know if it is called 'love' or not, but I often think about him recently and the sign that you fell in love is.. you got jealous when somebody was sitting or standing near him..)

And same... I think he doesn't think the same way, maybe he just think that I'm his friend... and same like before, he's popular too and many girls like him...
I don't know, why I should keep falling in love with 'popular' boys, I know, popular boys are hard to get, hard to impress, but I don't know and I'm so confused.. 

Yeah, I don't know why this situation keep happening to me... But, no problem, I'm already used to it :)

I don't need to be your girlfriend, cause I knew it's impossible... I'm happy to just be your secret admirer, and also your secret lover :)