Welcome highschool :D

Hey guys! sorry for long update, been really busy recently :(
Soo.. from july 23rd, I was officially a high-schooler. my high school is SMAK 1 Penabur which is one of the top schools in Jakarta. Am I happy? of course I am! It was not easy to enter that school, but somehow, I managed to be accepted! I met a lot of friends from different middle schools and even from outside Jakarta.
Of course I'm really happy to have lots of friends, but also nervous, because some of them, maybe much better and smarter than me. Challenge accepted! I'll do my best and let God do the rest.

High school life? Really fun. A lot of fun afterschool clubs to join (and I haven't choose yet!), our school's annual event, SMAK 1 CUP is also worth to wait. My class X5 is also a really fun class, with unique students which are really awesome. I hope we can have a great year ahead :D

High school daily activity? Plain stressful. Lots of task and homework to do. Thick books >.< and lots lots of subjects to learn! Pretty high standard so I'm really nervous, will I survive high school? But I have to! God will support me and I believe that.

"Home is where the heart is" An old quotes but really true. Everytime I returned to my former middle school (for administration purpose), that was when I feel mostly at "home". The atmosphere is really different and if I can turn the time back, I've always wanted to return to my home. Well, perhaps because I wasn't adapted to my high school yet. Hope I will, soon!!

I AM SMUKIERZ :))

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Payphone

A song by from Maroon 5 and Wiz Khalifa. My personal favorite, enjoy :)

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong

Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,

The people we used to be...

It's even harder to picture,

That you're not here next to me.

You say it's too late to make it,

But is it too late to try?

And in our time that you wasted

All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,

You turned out the lights

Now I'm paralyzed,

Still stuck in that time,

When we called it love,

But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong

Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,

I would still be holding you like this

All those fairy tales are full of shit

One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow

'Cause you forgot yesterday.

I gave you my love to borrow,

But you just gave it away.

You can't expect me to be fine,

I don't expect you to care

I know I've said it before,

But all of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,

You turned out the lights

Now I'm paralyzed,

Still stuck in that time,

When we called it love,

But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong

Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,

I would still be holding you like this

All those fairy tales are full of shit

One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

[Wiz Khalifa:]

Man, fuck that shit

I'll be out spending all this money

While you're sitting round wondering

Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing,

Made it from the bottom

Now when you see me I'm stunning,

And all of my cars start with a push of a button

Telling me the chances I blew up

Or whatever you call it,

Switch the number to my phone

So you never could call it,

Don't need my name on my shirt,

You can tell it I'm ballin.

Swish, what a shame could have got picked

Had a really good game but you missed your last shot

So you talk about who you see at the top

Or what you could have saw but sad to say it's over for.

Phantom pulled up valet open doors

Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for

Now it's me who they want, so you can go and take

that little piece of shit with you.

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong

Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,

I would still be holding you like this

All those fairy tales are full of shit

One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

Now I'm at a payphone...

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It's complicated

Hey bloggers! Long time no post, I'm sorry >.<

Hell yeah, I'm still alive, don't worry ;)
Just for your information, I'll definitely become a high-schooler next week and of course, I'm so nervous! New school, new friends, new teachers, need some time to get used to it. I've said farewell to some friends and one of my best friends, and that makes me really sad. Of course, we'll meet again, hopefully!

The rest of my story this holiday is bo-ring. I didn't travel abroad this summer. The first plan was to go to Singapore, but my parents canceled it and planned to travel abroad on new year instead.
My "other" story? Ooh..it's full of drama all the way. Yesterday we still talked to each other, the very next day we ignored each other. I just want to really end this never-ending drama, but somehow it's pretty hard for me to deal with it alone.
On the other side, when I almost stop waiting for that "someone" and ready to move on, that person, once again, comes back and tapping me on my shoulders. I really really don't want to look back, again. But I don't know why it's so hard to do. In other word, I'm so confused. It's just like, he forgot me for the entire 3 years but when I'm ready to forget him, he just showed up from nowhere.

Oh well, that's life and of course, love. So complicated, full of drama, full of choices, and takes a lot of courage. You know what? I hope I can be a little girl again and my biggest problem is to choose which clothes to wear. But life keeps going on, and it's pretty complicated :)

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