Fighting!!

I don't know why I always feel like this. It's like the evil keep whispering me 1 or 2 words that makes me uncomfortable. The evil keep whispering me things like this, "Just give up, Sella! You can't make it! You are the loser! Look at her, she's perfect, WAY BETTER than you! You can't be like her, you're such a loser!"

Yeah, something like that... I don't know why, maybe God is testing me this time. Every time I try to forget all those words, try to realize that I am special, try to get up, those words keep appearing in my mind. I can't make them go out of my mind!

I know, truly know, that everybody think I am special in my own way, but this crazy little evil keep bothering me! I need to fight! Yeah, keep fighting! But of course, I need somebody to help me...Anybody, who read this post, can you support me? Just comment below my posting and say "Keep fighting, Sella!!" Well, maybe that's too childish, isn't it? But, all I need is support from a lot of people. It's just a little thing, but it will be really matter for me

Please. if you don't mind, can you say things like that? But if you don't want, it's alright, it's okay...

I need a little time to just trust myself, and be sure I can defeat those little evil! 

Sella, FIGHTING!! :)

Got a special song that maybe matches my condition, or maybe yours, hope you enjoy:

Title: Beautiful

Artist: Christina Aguilera

Everyday is so wonderful, then suddenly,its hard to breath
Now and then I get insecure, from all the pain
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring me down oh nooo!
So don't you bring me down today

No no no no hmmmm

To all your friends you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Tryin  hard to fill that emptiness,
The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone
Ain't that the way it is?

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down oh noo no no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring you down oh nooo
So don't you bring me down today

Choir
No matter what we do (No matter what we do)
No matter what we say (No matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune (yeah yeah oh yeaaah)
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go (and everywhere we go)
the sun will always shine (the sun will always always shine)
And tomorrow we might awake on the other side

Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes words won't bring us down (oh no)
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring us down (oooooh)
So don't you bring me down today
Ohh yeaaah .. oooh
Don't you bring me down today
Heaaaay yeaaaaah .. oooh
Don't you bring me down
Today

We are beautiful in every single way