Gonna miss you, 2010~

Hi readers! Maybe it is my last post this year  *sigh* cause I'm gonna off for vacation tomorrow 'till January 3rd. Gotta enjoy it!
Yeah, it is almost the end of 2010 and I don't know why time flew very fast. It's just like yesterday I celebrated my birthday and now I'm gonna celebrate it again soon. I don't wanna to grow up quickly! But I should say, this year is such an amazing year for me! Every single year is extraordinary amazing even the upcoming year seems harder than this current year, but I still think, it will be extremely wonderful!

All I wanna say is... thanks God! You made my life sooooo amazing! I know life is not fair sometimes, but it's still good. I just realized, I often grumbling about little things, but I forget, that You've given me something that is more than enough. "You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, well you just might find you get what you need!" That's extremely true! Just gonna do some flashback and some self-introspection, I find that I've changed and improved this year. Well, that's a good start! And now...let's see my 2010 wish:
-Join the orchestra --->done :) I joined the orchestra as a violist
-Travel abroad ---> done :) Thanks to my mom and dad, love you sooooo much!
-New mobile phone ---> done :) Nokia E71, I like it!
-500 songs in my cellphone ---> done :) 511 songs for sure!
-Learn to play the guitar ---> Not done yet :(  add it to 2011 wish!
-50 followers in Twitter ---> done :) 59 followers and I still need more, wanna follow me?
-10 followers in blog ---> done :) Exactly 10 and I still need more...

Most of it are accomplished. *smile* and now here is my 2011 wish:
-iPod Touch
-750 songs in my cellphone
-Learn to play the guitar
-Travel abroad
-100 followers in Twitter
-20 followers in blog
-Still in the orchestra
-Improve my piano and violin skill
-Master the song "Turkish March" and remember it by heart
-Participate in OSN (Olimpiade Sains Nasional) English:National Science Olympic

So, that's it my 2011 wish, too much, isn't it? yeah, I know, especially the last one. But, don't give up and keep trying! Nothing is impossible, isn't it? Reach your dream :D
I need to get ready, have a nice holiday, and do the best to end this year. Hope 2010 will give you nice memory!

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Joyeux Noël!

There's something that I wanna say...
Have yourself a merry little Christmas! May your heart be filled with joy, happiness, and peace! Let the Christmas spirit grows and sparks in you!

Best wishes,

Sella Natassya

a.k.a Miss Unperfect

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My (Undone) Christmas Tree!

Yeah, I'm done with the Christmas tree and it didn't turn out really well. I'm not really good at decorating, you know :(  I haven't done with the living room, though...
But, I think it's not the most important part of Christmas. The most important thing is Jesus birth to this world, right?
So, let the Christmas spirit stay and spark in your heart :D

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Can't wait till Christmas!

Hey everyone! Just celebrated the awesomely awesome Christmas at my church! It was totally fun! There were some special performances, such as modern dance (ohhh...it was very cool! But..I prefer traditional ballet dance to modern hip hop dance) Then, after that the praise & worship session. Next, we heard the priest's lecture. The title was : "Do you love Jesus?" There are some characteristics if we love Jesus:

-Feeling guilty after commit a sin
Don't be like Adam or Eve that didn't want to confess their sin to God, but they blamed each other. Be like Peter. After he denied Jesus 3 times, he confessed his sin, he really regret it, and he cried. So, if we love Jesus, don't run if we already commit a sin. Go to Him, say sorry, confess, and don't repeat the same mistakes again :)

-Love each other
How can you love God, the invisible One, but you don't love your brother/sister who are visible? So, love God, love Jesus, love each other :D

-Feel happy to serve God
Don't think that serving God is a MUST. Think that, serving God is such a gift, a glory, and a chance for us to make Him happy, to make Him proud of us.

So, those are 3 signs that we love God very much. I love God even though sometimes it's hard for me to do such that things. But I'll try..I'll try my best. Do you?

And after we heard the priest's lecture, we watched the drama. The drama wasn't as good as my school's drama. It was too short and the acting wasn't really good. They were emotionless!
Finally, the gift-exchange session! We should collect our gifts in the middle of the room. And then, the MC counted: 1, 2, 3! We rushed to the middle and picked up our gifts! I took a small one, cause I thought a small one is better than the big one, that's just my opinion! And then, we opened that gift. I got a small clock! Not bad, I think..
Yeah, that was totally fun, can't wait till Christmas!!!!
P.S: I'm working on my Christmas tree, gotta upload the picture if I'm finished. Adieu!

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One semester has finished! Thanks God!!

1 semester has finished, I've got my report book and we've done the Christmas celebration. I'll tell it clearly and completely so this is gonna be a loooonnnnngggggg post. Hope you enjoy it!

CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION - BEHIND THE SCENE

 I didn't know that I was recruited in the school orchestra. As an amateur violist, I thought my skill wasn't enough to be in the orchestra. But Monday, after school, Yoel told me that I have to join the school orchestra for tomorrow's Christmas service and celebration. I was so surprised! The rehearsal would begin shortly and I didn't bring my violin to school! So I rushed home (luckily my home was close to school, about 10 minutes if you walk, 5 minutes if you run) And...I made it! I arrived back at school about 2-3 minutes before the rehearsal started! Not only the orchestra group that rehearsed, there were also the choir, the "guitar group", the 7th grade music group, the drama club, and so on...Everyone finished at 1 pm, but we, the orchestra member still have to practiced till 3 pm! Why? Mam Vita said the song pitch were too high that nobody can sing it! Well, that's not too high! So Mr Johan transposed it again, lowering 1 tone, then we practiced again. My body started to act strangely. I had a little stomachache and headache. But we HAVE to practice. The rehearsal finished at 3.30 pm and I went home. At home, I slept until 6 pm, took a hot shower (cause I didn't feel really well to take a cold shower), had dinner, tuned my violin (when I accidentally broke my G-string. Luckily I still had some strings and I could fix that), and then slept again. You know, I felt really sick and I was really afraid I couldn't perform tomorrow...

CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION - IT'S ON!

I woke up in the morning..and I felt completely good! Thanks God! Before the service started, we practiced first. Then, the service started. If I'm not mistaken, we played 5 songs during the service and 1 song during the celebration. There were:

-Joy to the world

-O Store God

-Go tell it on the mountain (It's a really 'country' song, I like it!)

-Joy to the world (Miss the rhythm, hope the audience didn't notice!)

-Hark the Herald Angels Sing

-Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas (It's my favorite song, it sounds a little 'jazzy'. Totally love it!)

I didn't know, why the whole class known me as a 'violist'. Actually I am a 'pianist' , not a 'violist'. But I think the pianist position has been taken, so I have to switch to violin. But no problem, I enjoy being a violist too!

After that, we watched the choir. The choir was pretty good. They sang:

-Carol of the Bells. (It's the Ukrainian carol and I love this song. Although this song sounded a little 'weird' or yeah, you know what) I tried to sing the soprano part, and I made it! Yeah! The highest note here is G5, it was really high, though. You can watch the video here. Or you can view the score here. Somehow, I really want to join the choir, but after I see the teacher, forget it! I stick with the orchestra! Lol!
-We're Marching in the Light of God 
It's a pretty song too, and I really like it! Actually it was an African song, but then it was translated to English. 
There was still 1 song, but I didn't know the title.

And then the guitar group with the song "Give Thanks". It was really good too. After that, the grade 7's music group with the song "He's Been Good". 

Now, the drama! The drama was totally....hell yeah....you know what. I can't express it with words! It was sooooooo funny! Too bad, mobile phones with camera are prohibited in my school so I couldn't take a picture or record it. The drama's title was "The Meaning of Christmas". So there were  a couple of girls that think Christmas is a day when we should have everything new, new clothes, new shoes, new bags, new boys (?) And finally, they realized the meaning of Christmas.


And then, my favorite part, the dance. It was a traditional Balinese dance, but it was really cool! After that, we watched the teacher's performance. Mr Yusuf's voice was very good! I never knew that P2's teacher have a really good voice!


Finally, English Club's performance collaborated with the kolintang. The English Club member performed a poem, about Christmas I think. I didn't pay too much attention to them though. So that, the Christmas celebration came to the end...


REPORT DISTRIBUTION 
   After the Christmas celebration, we returned to our class and got some souvenirs. After that, the report distribution started. I was really nervous!! The teacher gave me the report and I was so relieved. There were really good! Before, I thought there would be really bad. Yeah, really good, except 1 score. Physical Education! I only got 72! Yeah, I'm not good at sports, you know? 

That means, 1 semester has passed and the holiday is waiting for me now! Yeahhh!! Too bad we should go to school at Monday to return our report. Aargh...that's annoying! 

Well, I have to study harder next semester so I could continue my study in the good senior high school. Wish me luck, guys! And then, about my holiday plan...I've got a really fantastic plan for it and I can't wait till December 27th! Yeah, holiday trip guys! Bon Voyage!!

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Miss Unperfect

Yeah, this is my nickname and I love this nickname really much. It reminds me, that I can't be a perfect girl, I can't always get what I want, I'm unperfect...

Of course, this name has its own history. I've been tired acting like I'm the most perfect girl in the world. I've been sick of wearing the "mask of perfectness" everyday. I just want to show my true colors and that also mean, I need to get ready, ready to face those criticism, and other people's opinion about me. Based on my physiology test and based on my feeling, CRITICS and PEOPLE"S OPINION are my greatest fear. I don't know why. I hate to be called "you're ugly, you're not as smart as we think, you're overrated". So, that's why I always wear a mask when I go to school. I try to act perfectly, like a princess that doesn't have a single flaw. But now I realized, it's useless. It's better to show, who I am. 

• I can get angry easily
• I never can place myself in another people's position
• I can't never understand the others
• I'm too selfish
• I always want to get what I want
• I don't really like helping others
• I can get mad if somebody criticize me
• I never want to hear other people's opinion
• I always want to be the boss
• I'm careless
• I can forget things easily
• I always act like I'm the perfect one
• I hate it when someone is better than me
• I always want to be the best
• I'm hard to impress
• I have too high imagination
• I'm a dreamer
• I worry so much about myself
• I'm not a grateful person
• I like to judge another person by her/his physical appearance.
• I don't like being blamed
• I'm too indecisive

I hope you receive me, just the way I am, no need to pretending, I am not perfect. I hope all of you still wanna be friend with me. I know, I get really annoying sometimes. But I hope you understand me. Nobody's perfect, right? I'm sorry if I already being such an annoying and disturbing girl. I hope you forgive me...

 Unperfectness is such a gift, so we can keep trying our best to move closer to the word, "perfect" - Miss Unperfect

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A Letter of Apology

Dear girl,

I read your other blog, about HIM, about everything. I'm sorry for all of this, I never knew how you feel before, I'm sorry for tease you, I'm sorry for being such a bad friend that didn't know anything about her best friend's feeling.

You know what, I never like a boy like that! He is really mean, yeah, really mean! Treating girls like a toy, that he can play anytime he want to, and throw it away, anytime he get bored.

Trust me, I won't be an obstacle in your way, you're just WAY better than me. Again, I just wanna say sorry. And, this kind of problem won't make our precious friendship broken. Of course, I won't let him break our friendship too.

I hope you forgive me, and I hope our friendship still remains till forever...

Sincerely yours, 

~Your Best friend

A true friend is the greatest of all blessings

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H.O.L.I.D.A.Y!!!

HOLIDAY! It'll start next week after the Christmas celebration at my school and report distribution. I can't wait till holiday, and as you know, Christmas is my favorite event of the year, yeah, I like Christmas the most! Don't know why I love Christmas, but I find peace and joyfulness every time I celebrate Christmas. The atmosphere is also really good.
Christmas tree, hanging socks, everything is so wonderful! Just need to add snow and voila! It's a white Christmas! (Too bad Indonesia only has 2 seasons, not 4 seasons like countries in Europe and USA) Can't wait till Christmas and can't wait for the holiday!

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Fighting!!

I don't know why I always feel like this. It's like the evil keep whispering me 1 or 2 words that makes me uncomfortable. The evil keep whispering me things like this, "Just give up, Sella! You can't make it! You are the loser! Look at her, she's perfect, WAY BETTER than you! You can't be like her, you're such a loser!"

Yeah, something like that... I don't know why, maybe God is testing me this time. Every time I try to forget all those words, try to realize that I am special, try to get up, those words keep appearing in my mind. I can't make them go out of my mind!

I know, truly know, that everybody think I am special in my own way, but this crazy little evil keep bothering me! I need to fight! Yeah, keep fighting! But of course, I need somebody to help me...Anybody, who read this post, can you support me? Just comment below my posting and say "Keep fighting, Sella!!" Well, maybe that's too childish, isn't it? But, all I need is support from a lot of people. It's just a little thing, but it will be really matter for me

Please. if you don't mind, can you say things like that? But if you don't want, it's alright, it's okay...

I need a little time to just trust myself, and be sure I can defeat those little evil! 

Sella, FIGHTING!! :)

Got a special song that maybe matches my condition, or maybe yours, hope you enjoy:

Title: Beautiful

Artist: Christina Aguilera

Everyday is so wonderful, then suddenly,its hard to breath
Now and then I get insecure, from all the pain
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring me down oh nooo!
So don't you bring me down today

No no no no hmmmm

To all your friends you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Tryin  hard to fill that emptiness,
The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone
Ain't that the way it is?

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down oh noo no no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring you down oh nooo
So don't you bring me down today

Choir
No matter what we do (No matter what we do)
No matter what we say (No matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune (yeah yeah oh yeaaah)
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go (and everywhere we go)
the sun will always shine (the sun will always always shine)
And tomorrow we might awake on the other side

Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes words won't bring us down (oh no)
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring us down (oooooh)
So don't you bring me down today
Ohh yeaaah .. oooh
Don't you bring me down today
Heaaaay yeaaaaah .. oooh
Don't you bring me down
Today

We are beautiful in every single way

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Popular??

Maybe it's not a serious problem for some teen girls, but for me it is a pretty big problem.. Yeah, I've always want to be popular, not from a bad side of course, but it's hard to be popular, isn't it? The more I chase it, the more it goes away from me. Maybe it sounds a little mean and it seems that I'm a little jealous, but truly, I am. Sometimes I want to be like "them". "Them" here refers to many people lol! I want to be as beautiful as her, I want to be as smart as her, I want to be as popular as her, I want to be well-known like her, I want to be as confident as her, I want many things! Just think about it, I just said one of the popular girls and almost all class knew her, even the boys. What about me? Hopeless ==. When will I become popular?
Then, I just realized something from this song....and of course, it gave me an answer that I needed most

Title: Just the Way You Are

Artist: Bruno Mars

Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are(yeah)

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
The way you are, the way you are
Girl you're amazing, just the way you are

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. Yeah

I am amazing, just the way I am...This song made me realize, even I am not perfect, even I am not popular, even I am not beautiful, the world around me still love me, just the way I am...
My friends still think I am amazing, my family still think I am wonderful, and God still think I am the most precious one in His heart. Now my question has been answered.

We are amazing, just the way we are...

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Holiday...come sooner please...

Still got 2 weeks before the holiday. I'm sick of school and I need to have a break, but my lovely school seems not understand about my feeling. And yeah, you know, those crazy tests are still waiting for me (?) And then my friends and I still have to present our project about the orphanage (read my previous post), I still have to join the science competition next Sunday, and then the competition between classes will be held next week. And then, the most important part, report distribution! I'm not ready for this! My scores in Grade 8 are totally bad! TOTALLY! God, help me please...
But the most important thing, holiday, come sooner please....

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IT"S OVER!!

Final test is over! The last day was biology and it was freakin' hard! Yes, totally hard test. Although I've studied for 2 days (yeah, it wasted my weekend) I still found some problems and difficulties in those test. But of course, I am not free yet, there are still some examinations from the government, special for bilingual student ONLY. Gosh..this is not over, wish me luck guys!

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Living in a Fairytale!

Do you believe in fairytale? Many people don't, but I do. Even I live in a fairytale. Yeah, life itself is a most wonderful ~..Fairytale..~.
You'll never knew what will happen next, but actually I believe, everyone in this world will have their unique "happy ending" which is different one another.
Fairytale is full of surprise, so is my life. I'll never knew that I would meet her, meet him, or meet them. Life is unpredictable and also..magical. Life is also..full of different possibilities, nothing is impossible in this life. Maybe you think, it is impossible for Cinderella, a maid, can meet such a handsome prince and marry with him. But, what happened? She turned to the most beautiful princess in those kingdom and married the Prince. I believe, truly believe, that my simple life can turn to the most interesting adventure that I've ever been! Nothing is impossible, right?
You know, I really enjoy my life, my adventure, and this amazing fairytale. How about you??

Life itself is a most wonderful fairytale - Hans Christian Andersen

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Final Test!! I hate you so much!

Sorry for long update guys! Blame my crazy school and those crazy tests!

So final tests are here guys! I don't know why did the time fly really fast.. It just like yesterday I was in grade 8, mid terms, and now final terms! Almost 1 semester has finished.. Ohh...it's just like I want to become 8th grader forever! Become a 9th grader? NOO!!  Full of assignments, and of course, National Examination..

~Back to the topic~

On Monday, we had English and IT test. Not very hard I guess, but I just made several mistakes, my bad..

On Tuesday, we had...Physics and Religion! Physics was very difficult! The teacher hasn't explain about gas pressure and it made me really confused. Luckily, there were only few questions about it. I think, the important part was about the Archimedes Law, especially the Buoyant Force cause I didn't really get it.. Well, I don't care about my score anymore, just hope for the best..

On Wednesday, we had Mandarin and Bahasa Indonesia test. Today's test wasn't very hard, but the Bahasa Indonesia test was pretty confusing

On Thursday, the real battle started! Today's test was a little harder than the other test..ahh..wish me luck!

Today...the real battle reached its climax! Mathematics and Civil. No problem with civil, but..the mathematics...made me wanna die.

I thought the hardest part was equation of line, so I studied equation of line seriously but I didn't pay much attention to Pythagoras Theorem and the Simultaneous Equation with 2 variables. But I was wrong! The equation of line wasn't really hard, but the other materials were really hard! Especially the Pythagoras one! No problem with the essay, just made 1 silly mistakes..guess I only can get 80, not bad I think..

And now, next Monday I will have Biology test..I'm not ready yet! 6 chapters! Oh man, I guess I really wanna die...

P.S: After the final test, we still have some test from the government, FOR BILINGUAL STUDENT ONLY!

Gosh...somehow I really hate to be the bilingual student. Tons of tests and assignments...

Well, just a few more days and I'll be free...

Wish me luck!

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2 hours together with the orphan...

So, yesterday, my friends and I visited the orphanage to play, learn, and sing together with the orphan at "Panti Asuhan Dorkas" (English; Dorkas Orphanage). We arrived at the orphanage at 9.45. Actually, it was the assignment from our school, so if there was no assignment like this, I wouldn't go here...

First, we introduced ourselves. Then, Echa became the guitarist, Katherine became the MC of this activity, and I also helped Katherine... Egi and Nath became the photographer.

The first activity was sang together. And then, we learned math together. Those children wanted to learn about algebra! Wow! Then, it was English class. We didn't know what to teach. So Kath asked me to tell a story in English. I wasn't very sure that the children could understand me or not, and then I haven't practiced yet! So I just combined English with Indonesian, and I was very glad that they could understand me!

The last activity was origami class. Kath asked them to write their wishes and dreams, and then we should folded those paper to make some origami. It was very hard, even I couldn't do that! But, luckily those children were really happy.

Before we returned, we sang 2 songs, and then we shared some souvenirs and snacks. Seeing those children happy made me happy too! And also, we didn't forget to take some photos together. 

Here are some photos:

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November...

November is such a complicated month...tons of exam, assignment, project, and many more...
You know, I still have very much "undone" assignment...
Well let's say, we haven't practiced for the next drama in my Bahasa Indonesia class, then I haven't made my computer projects, about HTML website and flash animation..
We haven't made mind mapping for civilization project and lung model for the biology class.
I haven't done a lot of things that I should have done before
Anyway...I *love you very much* November! Thanks to you I can't enjoy my weekends anymore...

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Retreat...Last Day!!

Finally..it's the last day!! Same as before, I woke up in the morning, 4.30 I guess. Then, we had the "unimportant" morning exercise and morning reflection. After that, I took a bath and we had breakfast. Today, there weren't any sessions, but there were some outdoor activities, or we can say, group activities. Each group were given a map about the location, which post should we go first, and second, etc...
For my group, the first post was the Brown post. I didn't really understand the game there. So we were given a bundle of ropes that was really messy. And we should untie it so it would form 1 circle formed of that ropes. Well, we didn't make it in time. Then, we go to the next post. It's so hard to explain it.. well, I'll use a picture...

This was the game area. There were 4 rows and 8 columns. The game was: we should cross the area from the1st square till the 8th square. Unfortunately, we only had 3 steps or 3 chances to step on those squares. If we go from no.1, then no.2, then no.3, we should stop cause we already used all of our chances. There were 15 on us on my group and you know what was our idea?
The boys placed themselves on those squares and they carried the girl from 1 place to another so the girls didn't need to step on the ground, in other words, we saved our chances, and only used maybe 1 or 2 chances to step. But it was ridiculous! Dennis carried me not on his back, but he carried me like a prince carried a princess, you know? Like this! --->
Do you think it's romantic? ABSOLUTELY NO!!! I was so scared and I didn't trust him very much because before he carried me, he carried Ayumi and he dropped her on the ground! If he dropped me too...I'll teach him some lesson!!!!
Then, we went to other posts and played...and it was so damn funny! I couldn't explain them one by one cause there were too many!!
After that, it began to rain so we rushed to the hostel. And then, I took a bath and had lunch. Next, the announcement! The best team in this retreat is...group 7! a.k.a Kath's group and you know the second place?! My super duper extra messy group!! I couldn't believe it! And next, the king and queen, they were from... class 8B! My class won! WooHoo!!!
Before we returned to Jakarta, we took some photos there . I slept during the way and time flew really fast. So..it was my fun retreat and I'm gonna memorize it because it was so damn amazing!!

Be humble, even that we are different, actually we're the same...

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Retreat..."I am Special'

2nd day! I woke up at 4.30 am and then I drank my milk :). Next, we got ready for morning exercise. It was so cold outside and I was too sleepy for exercise!! After that, I took a bath just like usual and then we started the morning reflection. And then, we went to the dining room to have breakfast. As usual, Nath and the other girls booked "our table" first before the others took that! I didn't really like the meal, but I have to eat that. Then, the first session started. The theme was same, "Together in Diversity" . At the end of this session, we watched a short clip. It was about the girl and the boy who was bullied by their classmates. Their classmates always call them "loser", "wimp", and many more. You know, words hurt. So, even that we are different, but we are still God's creation. Even that our friends are not really beautiful, short, ugly, and many more, but we shouldn't tease them, everybody is special.... 

And then, we continued with "learning activities". each of us get a piece of paper and that  paper was pasted on our back. Then, we walked around and looked for  someone who will write something on paper. The person must write our paper with the name of body's member (example: eyes, mouth, brain, etc) according to our personality. Then, those session ended and we had snacks. After that, we planned our talent show. My group should perform a poem. Then, Michelle, I, and Cindy composed the poem while the boys were playing in the pool. (guys, you are all really lucky to be in the same group with me and Michelle!) Then, I took a bath but of course, I was really nervous. We haven't practice just for a minute! Then, the talent show started! We got turn no.7, we were lucky, yeah. Then, we got our turn. Yeah, it was very bad, very bad!! Then, my favorite session, king and queen! From my class, 8b, there was 1 couple, our class leader and vice leader. Of course 1 of my friends wouldn't be happy 'bout this... Then, we had dinner and the last session today, dedication service. It wasn't as sad as the one when I was still in grade 6. And then, we went to our room to sleep. But of course, we didn't sleep right away. We chatted first. Today was a great day

Words hurt, don't be part of it

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Retreat..."Celebrate the Diversity"

Ok, here I am...just returned from retreat at Pondok Remaja (English: Youth Hostel), Cipayung, West Java. Retreat is one of my school's programs so I have to follow it...Well, in this post I gotta tell you the first day of retreat...

In the morning, we gathered first at SMPK 2... then, we started briefing and then we went into our bus. I was in bus no.1 with my best friend...We listened to music, ate some snack, played Echa's iTouch..., chatted all day long until we arrived at Pondok Remaja. Fortunately, the street wasn't too crowded so we could arrive quickly.

I got room no 111, cool number, huh? I shared my room with 3 other girls (not bad, I thought)

First, we had some lunch, then recess time. The recess time was too long I think, just imagine, 2.5 hours without any activity! I just chatted with the other girls and took a short tour around the hostel. And then, I took a bath. The bathroom wasn't very big but fortunately, there was hot shower...

After the recess time ended, we had some snacks. And then, the opening service started. This retreat theme was "modesty". After the opening service ended, we had dinner and then we started the first session. The title was "Celebrate the Diversity". The main message was although we are really different, that's not a problem for us to keep going, that's not a reason for us to fight, but we should celebrate those diversity...

Then in "learning activity" session, we watched a movie called "Hotel Rwanda". The story took place in Africa about 10-15 years ago. The "Hutu" and "Tutsi" were fighting because they were different. The story was a little...scary and I imagined, if I live there at that moment, maybe I'll choose to end my life. Cause the situation was really really really scary. Just like a war. I'm glad it's all over. After that session end, each group should make a quote about diversity. Here is a quote that I like from the other group :

Just like 7 colors that form a rainbow, we are different, but those difference make us beautiful

Celebrate the diversity, guys!

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Wake me up when October ends...

Okay, this week is kinda busy, really busy!!

Monday: Volley test! Ok, I've told you before that I'm really bad at sport, right? But, luckily I didn't fail in this test. We should do passing at least 20 times in 1 minute. For me, it's hard! But, fortunately, I can did 28 times and I passed!! Woohoo! I was so happy because I seldom passed on P.E test. My best friend, Regina, did it 60 times, she rocks!! And then, in music class, we watched some movie about music. Most of them were guitar. That made me want to learn guitar. Caprice no 24 from Paganini is amazing! But it's very hard of course, even my father can't play it!

Tuesday: Boring day... I don't know, I always hate Tuesday...After school clubs just made me bored

Wednesday: Tried to build a tower from matches. I only could build it until 9 cm tall! And then, the teacher asked the students to make it taller. So, I joined with my "table-mate" to make it taller. Ours were 16 cm tall! But, another students built the tower up to 22 cm tall! Physics test! Super duper hard test! I wish I can get a good mark :) After school, I met a guy from 8E class called "A". And you know what?! He was very arrogant! He said the physics test was easy. Yeah, he's good at physics, but the way he talk and the way he brag annoyed me! Disgusting!

Thursday: Nothing special about this day, I think

Friday: Retreat group was announced! I was in the same group with Michelle, my best friend! But, I would be in the same group with the "arrogant guy" or the "Mr Know It All"... Oh...my group sucks! Retreat is next Wednesday and I hope it will be a great fun!

Saturday: Finished our English Presentation about "speculation". And it took a lot of time .And then, some of my friends gathered at my house and then we played a game called "paparazzi" A crazy game, yeah, we invented it. Saturday's target was Kath. And we took a lot of photos of her! And I have the funny one! Lol!

Sunday: Went to the church, finished my presentation, studied Mandarin for tomorrow's test, tried to memorize "Jesu, Joy of Man's Desiring" score, wrote this crazy post...

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Once upon an October...

It's Saturday! And you know what, report distribution! I got mmm... quite good marks, but I got a really bad mark for Physical Education (sport) I only got 68! Oh man...
After that, my friends, Albert, Emen, Kath, and Regina gathered at my house to finish our drama script...
It was hilarious! We shared and shared about everything that happen to our life... Albert and Emen revealed their deepest secret about the girl that they like.. (so sweet.. I hope somebody will love me, "he" will love me the way they love their girl) even the girls didn't know and even didn't like 'em back, but they won't give up! (Keep fighting, guys! )
****Back to the drama****
Ok, it was really annoying but it was freaking funny! Especially the "bullying" part, when the "bullies" bully the stupid teacher!! LOL! But I'm not ready to perform it... Oh man...
Ok, that's all... I can't share everything here, there are a lot of my friend's secret... bye!

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Fun day with science ~

Okay, on Friday Oct 15th 2010, Michelle, I, and some other friends from grade 8 and 9 joined the "SMUKIEZ National Competition" Here is the story...
8 am : Went to SMAK 1 from P2
9 am : Registration, breakfast at school's cafetaria...
9.30 am: Opening ceremony..
10.00 am: Game start! My team number was 6! And the other science team from P2 got number 30... My team consisted of me, Michelle, and J.P. The questions were really hard! Maybe it's because we are still in grade 8 and there were a lot of materials from grade 9... I did the chemical one, michelle did the biology and J.P did physics. We didn't answer about...10 questions in physics, because we didn't know how to solve it! I've said before, it was grade 9 material!
11.30 am: Finished! We waited for the announcement. All of the participants got the dolphin puppet!
13.30 pm: The announcement. We failed to go to semifinal :( but the other team passed and had to compete again (Later they became the first winner, woohoo, I'm so proud of them! Go P2! You are the best!)

Conclusion : Of course we didn't win this year, but next year, when I already in grade 9, I'll prove that I can! I'll study harder, practice harder, (and of course pray harder XD) When they already graduate from P2, don't worry, I won't give up, I'll try harder, and I won't let P2 down! GO P2!

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No, he is not the one..

About a boy... that I like several times ago... now I realized that I just kinda "like" and "admire" him, not "love" him... And I have to say this, even it's kinda hard, but I need to be true to my own feeling, that I really love the previous one. Well, we're separated miles apart, but I still miss him, I still want to meet him, just once again is enough. I don't know whether he miss me or not, he loves me or not, I don't care.. it's alright, it's okay...As long as he happy, I'm happy too.. :)

The word "like" is not the same as the word "love"

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Thanks God, it's over!

Midterms was finished a couple of days ago and now it's the teacher's turn to inform us the result of our midterms. Mine? It's not really good... Well, I passed on them all, but it's not as good as last year. For biology, my fav subjects, I got a good mark. That's not a really big problem cause actually I'm really bad at social science (I only got 82, oh man, that's terrible!) and for Bahasa Indonesia, I really got a bad mark! Even I speak Indonesian 24/7, but I can say that's the hardest subject for me...

Michelle and I will participate in smuki competition next week, so wish us luck! Actually, I bet Michelle will get 90 for social science. If she gets 90, she should study chemistry for the upcoming competition, and I'll study biology, but my bet is wrong!! So I should study chemistry, oh my!

That's for this week, I'm glad that the midterms were running well and I didn't failed... Hope next time I'll get better marks...

Adiós!

Believe, your song will hold the key <3

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Midterms!! You're driving me crazy!

Midterms are finished everybody!!! But... the scanner in my school ruined that happy moment! You know what, on Monday, Mam Intan, our IT teacher, said that no one passed that test and that means everyone failed! I only got 68 and the passing grade is 72.... That's impossible! There are a lot of clever guys in my class and I can't believe it that they only got 60 or 70... After she checked it again, actually it is the machine's fault or the computer's fault (our school checks the midterm by computer, not manually) and I got... 90, that's better!
And again.. this kind of "accident" happened again on Friday... my Bahasa Indonesia teacher said almost 80 % of my class failed on midterm, I only got... again 68, but I'm sure, I'm really sure that it was the machine's fault. It should be! Or my midterms will be the worst!!

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Friday After-School Party!

Ok, it's a little crazy post, sooo just enjoy!
On Friday, Katherine, Regina, Michelle, Klemens, Yohanes, and I practiced computer together for the upcoming powerpoint competition at smak 5. Then, we have a brilliant idea! We decided to eat together at the restaurant after school. Well, we didn't celebrate anything actually, not someone's birthday, but maybe we celebrated the 'half-done' midterms. Well, midterms are killing me, ya' know?
So, we counted our money first, cause we didn't have much money, and we had Rp170,000. We thought that it would be enough. We chose D'cost restaurant because that restaurant was pretty cheap and the food was delicious.
Oh My! We were sooo noisy!
1. When we wanted to enter the restaurant, we were so nervous, so nobody wanted to enter the restaurant first. Shame on you guys!
2. When we ordered some meal, we asked the waitress, how much should we pay. We were so afraid our money wasn't enough!
3. Our table was very nooooisssssyyy. We were the center of attention!
4. When Yohanes wanted to go to the toilet, he made the chair fell and of course, it caused a lot of noise. Again, everyone stared at us
5. Klemens dropped the plastic list to the floor and it caused a lot of noise. I couldn't stop laughing!!
6. When we wanted to pay at the cashier, we counted our money first, and it took very long time, it made the cashier laugh at us! Oh my, if somebody asked me, "What school do you come from?" I'll never say, I'm from smpk 2 (penabur 2 junior high school), cause my school is one of the best school in Indonesia (I'm not bragging), cause if they know, we're from smpk 2, ooh.. I can't imagine that!
So, it was a really fun Friday after-school party. Hope we'll have a party like this next time!

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Adventure in Yogya...

Well... it's gonna be a reallllllyyyyyy long post! On Thursday, September 9th, we went to Yogya.. "we" here means: me, my dad, my mom, my sister, my aunt, my uncle, my cousins (there are 3 of them) and me...

DAY 1
Woke up at 6 am, the driver would pick us up to the airport at 7 am, you know, I was still sleepy... *it's holiday, you know??
Jakarta was sooo quiet, it's like everybody already enjoyed their holiday abroad, we arrived at the airport at 8 am, and the plane departed at 10 am, it was really boring!
First, we ate noodle at the restaurant there, and then we did some window-shopping at the airport while waiting the plane to depart. At 10 am, we departed to Yogya and at 10.30 am we arrived safely there.
We went to the hotel by car. We stayed at Hyatt Regency Hotel, I didn't know whether the hotel was 5 star, or 4 star, but the hotel was really good. There were a lot of international tourists there and I wish I could make friends with them...
After we settled down, we decided to have lunch at the restaurant next to the hotel... At the afternoon, we decided to go swimming
I met a girl there, I thought she was american or australian and she was swimming too, she was at the same age with me, about 12-13 years old, I thought she was very friendly, but I was too shy to say "hello" to her... but I realized that I should say "hi" to her.. My mom said that she was trying to attract me and she was trying to say "hello" to me too, but she was too shy, haha... very funny!
After we took a bath, we went to Malioboro by taxi. Malioboro was a really famous shopping district in Yogyakarta...
At night, I read some novels while my cousins and my sister were playing
And then... we went to sleep

DAY 2
A real adventure has just started! We had breakfast at the hotel and then we ready to go to Borobudur Temple

It took about 1 hour from our hotel to go there...  It was a really huge Buddhist temple, the height was about 35.41 m (I read the description there) but unfortunately, it was incomplete. There were a lot of thieves that steal the statue, the earthquake effect, etc... But overall, it was really pretty.

And then, we went to "Ketep Pass". It was like... a place to observe Merapi volcano. Merapi is one of the most active volcanoes in the world. The view there was really beautiful, we ate lunch there... And then, we watched a documentary film about Merapi volcano.
And then, we continued our journey to Kaliurang, it was like... a camping site. And then, it started to rain, so we just stay at the "warung" there to just eat meatballs, drink coffee, and something like that
Finally, we went to the Chinese Restaurant (finally, cause I don't really like Javanese food, I prefer Chinese food) and then, we returned to our hotel and have a rest

DAY 3

We decided to go to Prambanan Temple, a Hindu temple. It was really beautiful too... and it was the highest Hindu temple in Indonesia... And then, we watched the documentary video about Prambanan temple... 

Next, we went to the Ratu Boko Palace, the former palace of Roro Jonggrang... (it is an Indonesian folk tale) the view was really pretty too...

Then, we went to Malioboro again, to complete our shopping... At night... a disaster happened!
Our sweet little cousin was lost in the hotel, and we were so panic!

My dad, Adit (my cousin) and I went to the reception desk to report her, while my mom and my aunt looked for her.Luckily, she was found near the swimming pool, thanks God!

DAY 4

Last day in Yogyakarta.. We swam again in the morning, did some packaging, and then we went to the airport. After we arrived at the airport, we ate lunch at Padang Restaurant. I don't really like Padang food because it was too spicy... After that, we left Yogya and return to Jakarta...
Bye, Yogya... Miss u always...

My Observations:
Remember my promise about the observations? Ya' think I'm kidding? Of course no.. Here are some things that I love about Yogya and it's citizen:
1. The people are friendlier
Yeah, the people there are friendlier than Jakarta citizen. They always greet us "good morning", "good night", "good afternoon", "have a nice day", "have a safe flight", etc... The Jakarta citizen never did that...
2. They are more polite
They always say "thank you", "sorry", without being asked. The Jakarta citizen is not that friendly.
3. They are more honest
When my aunt forgot her umbrella and left it at the bus, one of them said that he saw the umbrella and return it to mu aunt. In Jakarta, if you left something, you will never get it back...

So, it was my wonderful adventure in Yogyakarta, happy holiday all!!

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....is it called love?...

It it... L.O.V.E

It's been 2 years since I fell in love... and it's the 2nd time, I don't know why but I think that I'm getting lovesick (again) you know? my heart was beating very fast when I see your face, even when I just see your photo... I stop breathing when you was smiling at me... And I think I can't move my feet when I saw you walking towards me...

I'm afraid!!
But I'm too afraid to say it... I'm too afraid to say hi to you... I'm too shy to talk to you... why? Cause you are soooo popular, you're so amazing, you're an idol! Many girls like you! But I'm not your fans, you know? I like you, not because of  your popularity, appearance, or cleverness... I like and love you the way you are... I love your personality, your smile, but I can't say it... cause I knew.. you'll turn me down, cause I'm not that good :( I'm just an ordinary, usual girl...

Secret Admirer

I'm not a stalker, I'm your secret admirer :) But don't worry, I didn't send you presents, like flowers, chocolate, love letters or notes... and I won't... I just... love you but nobody knew it.. that;s the meaning of secret admirer here, of maybe I should say it... secret lover... Nobody knew it, even my best friends (and I swear I'll never tell it to them) I knew, it's impossible for me to be your girlfriend, cause we're separated miles apart... you know what? I'm still love you with all of my heart, even when nobody knows it... :))

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--Shouldn't hope too much--

Hi guys! Long time no update!! I'm in Yogya right now but luckily my dad brought a laptop, so I could lend it and use it... 

*I'll post stories from Yogya later...

Well, this post is kinda private but... I should keep post it... Why? cause I don't have any diary to write my feeling down, but I can't keep lying to myself, I need to be honest to my own feeling... But, I'll keep it as private as I can

This post is about my ... (you'll know it later...)

I think I always fell in love with a wrong person..

My first love (I couldn't tell his identity) was a really great person... He's smart, funny, and he's got everything I am searching for... But he's too popular and a lot of girl liked him too, I don't know if he liked me, but I think he didn't... well, it's ok, and I knew it's impossible...
There were some rumors that said he likes me, but I knew that's impossible... Well, I shouldn't trust rumors...

And now... after about 2 years...I fell in love with another person (I don't know if it is called 'love' or not, but I often think about him recently and the sign that you fell in love is.. you got jealous when somebody was sitting or standing near him..)

And same... I think he doesn't think the same way, maybe he just think that I'm his friend... and same like before, he's popular too and many girls like him...
I don't know, why I should keep falling in love with 'popular' boys, I know, popular boys are hard to get, hard to impress, but I don't know and I'm so confused.. 

Yeah, I don't know why this situation keep happening to me... But, no problem, I'm already used to it :)

I don't need to be your girlfriend, cause I knew it's impossible... I'm happy to just be your secret admirer, and also your secret lover :)

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Countdown!!!

Well, it's countdown time! 1 more day to go! Yogya.. Yogya!! I'm really looking forward to it!

Well, I don't know exactly where should we go... and I can say, we haven't make the schedule yet^^

There will be 9 of us, my mom, my dad, my sister, my aunt, my uncle, 3 cousins, and me!! Well, I really like travelling together, well, I can say... the 9 of us always together... can't be separated!!

But... I got a tons of homework and assignments during holiday!! But... it's holiday time sista!!

And finally... happy holiday all!!

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Yogya... Yogya... Here I Come!

I'm really looking forward for Thursday... Why?! Cause we'll go to Yogyakarta... Well, I've been there before, but it was when I still 8 :( ... 

To do list on Yogya:

1. Buy a lot of Batik!!! (Don't have many Batik and I think Batik in Jakarta is not really good...)

2. Visit the Borobudur Temple, Mendut Temple, and Prambanan Temple (I only visited the Borobudur Temple before....)

3. Shopping in Malioboro :D 

4. Take A LOT OF photos... You know, I really seldom taking photos, cause my old phone's camera is not really good...

5. Make an observation and compare Yogya to Jakarta (I know it's totally useless... but I just do it for fun! )

Well, that's my top 5 list.... the other list is waiting up....

How 'bout you?

xxEnjoy your holidayxx

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Thanks God!! Another Amazing Week!

Wow, another amazing week has passed! Well, a lot of things happened, let's start this week summary!

Monday: Basketball lay-up re-test, got 5/5, great! (Why wouldn't I do this perfect shoot at first, so I didn't have to repeat it :c ) Then, running re-test. Finally, I could run 34 laps, but my score was still bad, I only got 68...

Then, I played violin reallly bad at school. Why? Well, I didn't know how to say in English but my violin is "fals karena belum di-stem) 

At the end of the day, I got a really shocking news, that my favorite after-school clubs... has shut down! Why? There aren't enough member, so the school decided to shut it down.... But, it was my favorite... and Egi's favorite too!! (Egi is the best friend of mine)

Tuesday: Geography test and PLKJ test, hope I'll get a good mark :), oh yeah, I got my English test result, realllly bad, I only got 72, and the passing score was 75... Luckily, Sir Eddy gave us re-test, so I could repair my score

Wednesday: Math test, and I already made 2 stupid mistakes... hope I'll get good mark:) I got my Physics test, and I was really nervous, because my friend in another class only got 77, and most of them got a really bad mark (That friend of mine was really clever, so I didn't believe she could get 77) and... I got 89! I was really relieved... Then, Mam Rita said she made some mistakes, so we should got 3 extra points... so my Physics test was 92! (Thanks god...)And then... I joined the competition at smak 3, and you know what? It was a really weird + strange+ freak+ crazy competition. The question was... really abnormal ("ga mutu" in bahasa indonesia, haha) But, I got the 2nd place, well, not bad...

Thursday: English re-test, hope I'll get good mark...

Friday: New car!! My parents already discussed this, and they agree to trade our old Panther car with an Avanza! (with some extra fee of course...) But, hasn't got the insurance, so we should take care of that car reallly carefully.... 

So, this is a really special week, and you know, every week is special! Thanks God, please lead me next week...

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Craziest Saturday Ever!!

Well, it's a craziest Saturday ever! My friends came to my house at 12.00 because we wanted to make our Bahasa Indonesia project, about tips. At first, we didn't know what should we make, "how to concetrate at school?" That's so boring! "how to look beautiful in your hardest time?" Oh my, no one would read that! So, we just waited for our another friend, that is really creative, for about 20 minutes. In that meantime, we edited some of my friend's photo, just call her... emm... Kath. It was totally fun! And that... after we waited for 20 minutes, our friend came and we started to start our project. We decided to make "how to be a best friend" Well, too common, too classic, but at least it's better than "how to study well" lol!
We made it not by computer, original handmade! It took us about 1 - 2 hours to finish it... It wasn't really good either... (I post the picture later!)
When we finished it, we continued our "project"... editing Kath's photo, and it turned out really good! You should see the result, it was totally cool!!
That was crazy, totally! Otherwise, my friend and I discussed about the next project. We decided to edit some more photos, and combine it, so it will become a story!
Another crazy thing (but it was a good thing ) was a new handphone from my dad! *Thanks, dad!* It was Nokia E71! Bye2 my old N81, miss you always :( So, it was my craziest Saturday ever... hope you have a nice weekend...

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The Super Busiest Week Ever!!

Akhirnyaa... 1 minggu t'lah lewat... this week is the busiest week ever, you know? (I used English not because I am 'sok inggris', but I just want to practice... ok I'll combine with Bahasa Indonesia, too)

Monday: 1. Mandarin: test about countries and languages (Hope I'll get a good mark, 2. P.E :Test (Short-track run) min. 34 laps, and you know what? I only could run 33 laps :(, 3.Music: memorize the "Minuet" song, not really hard cause I've memorized it before, but suddenly...I forget and should memorize it again zzz.

Tuesday: 1. Math test: (Function and notation of function) 2.English test: (Question tag, agree, disagree, respond) -checked it on Thursday, and I got a lot of mistakes... NOO! 3. Physics test: (Force -essay) Again, I hope I'll get good mark! 4.Skill Development : I chose Graphic Design and we learned about axonometry, it's really hard!   5. Computer : Got a homework about HTML, confusing! Should submit it on Thursday... T.T

Wednesday: 1. Biology test: (Growth and development (really hard!! I hope I don't get bad marks... cause   it's totally hard!) 2. Mam Eva gave me homework to create a short story..... at least 6-8 pages!

Thursday: Have a little break cause school finished at 10

Friday: 1. Biology presentation (Movement System) and my team was reallly bad!! I hope I'll get good marks    2. English listening test (3 mistakes... stupid mistakes...)

Saturday: Bahasa Indonesia project.... (tips) booriing.... 

So, it was my busiest week summary. I need a break!!

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Can't believe but I can do that!!

Wah... tadi ga nyangka lho bisa ketemu "dia" lagi, "dia" di sini itu temen lamaku. Dia jarang banget ol facebook, , trus ganti no hp, tapi tadi pas iseng" buka yahoo messenger, eh liat dia ol. Pertama, takut and malu ajak dia ngobrol, gengsi gitu deh, tapi abis dipikir-pikir, kapan lagi coba? Lgpula dia tuh jarang ol dimana-mana, Langsung aja deh, ajak ngobrol... Dia ga berubah... masih lucu, masih suka iseng, cuma kayaknya lebih cool aja sekarang. Tapi... kalau online kan kita ga tau orang itu niat atau ga niat chat sama kita... Tapi, no prob, yg penting kan kita udah ada komunikasi lagi,hehe... kejadian langka yang patut di-share

*saya sedang berbahagia, makanya agak norak sedikit... XD

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Wish me Luck!!

A lot of tests next week... On Monday I have, maybe about 2 tests. Mandarin and Maths. On Tuesday, I have 4 tests, English, Physics, Computer and... Maths again! On Wednesday... Biology test!

And also, I have to participate in SMAK 3 Week Competition... arrgh!! Well, wish me luck, friends!!

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Happy Independence Day!!

Happy Independence Day!! Hope Indonesia will get better, better at everything! Love you so much^^

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13. So Far So Great

Title: So Far So Great
Artist: Demi Lovato
Album: Here We Go Again

Off to the graces
I'm going places
Might be a long shot
Not gonna waste it
This is the big break
And it's calling my name
Yeeeaah

So far so great, get with it
At least that's how I see it
Having a dream's just the beginning
So far so great, believe it
Can’t take away this feeling
Taking a ride with chance to my side
Yeah, I can't wait
So far, so great

Might need to wing it
Still gonna bring it
Not gonna sink low
I'm going swimming
Swing for the fences
Sky's not the limit today
Yeeeaah

So far so great, get with it
At least that's how I see it
Having a dream's just the beginning
So far so great, believe it
Can’t take away this feeling
Taking a ride with chance to my side
Yeah, I can't wait
So far, so great

Everyone says don't get your hopes up
Learn the ropes and climb the ladder
I know in the end that just being here is the best
And it only gets better, it only gets better

So far so great, get with it
At least that's how I see it
Having a dream's just the beginning
So far so great, believe it
Can’t take away this feeling
Taking a ride with chance to my side
Yeah, I can't wait
So far, so great
I can't wait
So far so great



YOW!!!!

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12. Everything You're Not

Title: Everything You're Not
Artist: Demi Lovato
Album: Here We Go Again

I've been bruised and I've been broken
Can't believe that I put up with all this pain
I've been used and I was choking on the promise I would never fall again (umm)


I used to sing to your twisted symphony
The words that had me dropped inside your misery
But now I know the reason why I couldn't breathe


Cause all I want is everything you're not
So go ahead and slam the door
Cause you can't shut me out
No I don't
Don't care what you say
Cause all I really, all I really want is everything you're not
(never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again)
Everything you're not (never wanna feel this way again)


Your darkness was my weakness
But it turns out that it only went so deep. (Deep)
A meaningless diversion,
That is all that you ever meant to me (me, me, me)


And I am done with your twisted symphony
The words that had me sound like stolen poetry
I tore the pages and I can finally breathe


Cause all I want is everything you're not
So go ahead and slam the door cause you can't shut me out
No I don't
Don't care what you say
Cause all I really, all I really want is everything you're not
(never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again)


I want a gentleman who treats me like a queen
I need respect, I need love. Nothing in between.
I will not spell it out for you if you can see
Cause you're not worth it. You don't deserve it.
And now I'm gone (everything you're not, not, not)
Everything you're not (not, not)
One, Two,Three!


Cause all I want is everything you're not (thing you're not)
So go ahead and slam the door cause you can't shut me out (shut me out)
No I don't
Don't care what you say
All I really, all I really want is everything you're not


(Never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again. Never wanna feel this way again)
Oh Uh Oh Oh
(Never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again. Never wanna feel this way again)
Oh Uh Oh Oh
(Never gonna break my heart again. Never gonna see my face again. Never wanna feel this way again)

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11. Remember December

"Remember December" is a single by American pop-rock singer Demi Lovato. It serves as the second single from her sophomore album, Here We Go Again. The music video has an 80's type theme, and features Lovato's Camp Rock 2: The Final Jam co-stars. It was met positively by critics and fans alike. Lovato has stated that the video is like none she's ever done before, and that she loved it. Meaghan Jette Martin took to twitter to comment about the video, stating "Chloe Bridges and I have awesome 80's hair. I can't wait to see how Anna Maria Perez de Tagle's hair will turn out!!!"

Title: Remember December

Artist: Demi Lovato

Album: Here We Go Again

I feel a separation coming on
'Cause I know you want to be moving on
I wish it would snow tonight
You'd pull me in, avoid a fight
'Cause I feel a separation coming on

Just prove that there is nothing left to try
'Cause the truth I'd rather we just both deny
You kissed me with those open eyes
It says so much, it's no surprise to you
But I've got something left inside

Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say, don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember, don't surrender

You said you wouldn't let them change your mind
'Cause when we're together fire melts the ice
Our hearts are both on overdrive
Come with me, let's run tonight
Don't let these memories get left behind

Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say, don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember

I remember us together with a promise of forever
We can do this, fight the pressure
Please remember December

Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say, don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember, don't surrender

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10. World of Chances

I LOVE this song! It's amazing!

Title: World of Chances

Artist: Demi Lovato

Album: Demi Lovato

You've got a face for a smile you know
A shame you waste it when you're breaking me slowly
But I've got a world of chances for you
I've got a world of chances for you
I've got a world of chances, chances that you're burning through

I've got a paper and pen
I go to write you goodbye and that's when I know
I've got a world of chances for you
I've got a world of chances for you
I've got a world of chances, chances that you're burning through

Oh, I'm going my own way, my faith has lost its strength again
Oh, it's been too hard to say, we've fallen off the edge again
We're at the end, we're at the end

Maybe you'll call me someday
Hear the operator say the number's no good
And that she had a world of chances for you
She had a world of chances for you
She had a world of chances, chances you were burning through
Chances you were burning through, chances you were burning through

You've got a face for a smile you know

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9. Stop the World

Title: Stop the World

Artist: Demi Lovato

Album: Here We Go Again

woah oh oh

i don't know why
i don't know why
im so afraid
(so afraid)

i don't know how
i don't know how
to fix the pain
(fix the pain)

we're living a lie
living a lie
this needs to change
(needs to change)

we're out of time
we're out of time
and it's still the same

we can't stop the world
but there's so much more that we could do
you can't stop this girl
from falling more in love with you

you said nobody has to know
give us time to grow
and take it slow
but i'd stop the world
if it finally let us be alone
let us be alone oooo ohhh oh

im hearing the noise
hearing the noise
from all around
(from all around)

im on the edge
im on the edge
of breaking down
(of breaking down)

like Bonnie and Clyde
let's find a ride and ditch this town
keep it alive
keep it alive
don't make a sound
(make a sound)

we can't stop the world
but there's so much more that we could do
you can't stop this girl
from falling more in love with you

you said nobody has to know
give us time to grow
and take it slow
but i'd stop the world
if it finally let us be alone
let us be alone oooo ohhh oh

I never wanna take that final look,
I’ll turn another page
Wont close the book.

We cant stop the world,
But there’s so much more that we can do.
You cant stop this girl from falling more in love with you.
You said nobody has to know give us time to grow and take it slow.
But I'd stop the world
If they finally let us be alone.
Let us be alone.
Let us be alone…
Alone, ooh, ooh, weee-ah. Alone.

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8. Got Dynamite

Title: Got Dynamite

Artist: Demi Lovato

Album: Here We Go Again

I cant take your hand and
lead you to the water
I cant make you feel what you don't feel but you know you wanna
find out how to crack me
Log in try to hack me

Underneath the surface
there's so much you need to know
And you might feel like you're drowning
but that's what I need to let go

Tell me what you got to break down the walls
You just might need Dynamite
Tell me what you got to break down the walls
Kick senseless my defenses
Tell me what you're gonna do
I need you to light the fuse
Tell me what you got to break down the walls
You just might need Dynamite

Got Dynamite?

I cant paint this picture
just so you can hang it
I can't wait for you to understand if you just don't get it
find out how to crack me
Log in try to hack me

Underneath the surface
there's so much you need to know
And you might feel that you're drowning but that's what I need
to let go

Tell me what you got to break down the walls
You just might need Dynamite
Tell me what you got to break down the walls
Kick senseless my defenses
Tell me what you're gonna do
I need you to light the fuse
Tell me what you got to break down the walls
You just might need Dynamite

When the walls come crashing down
I hope you're standing right in front of me
Where the past lies all around me
Cause all you need to save me is to intervene
and make the walls come crashing down....

Got Dynamite

Tell me what you got to break down the walls
You just might need Dynamite
Tell me what you got to break down the walls
Kick senseless my defenses
Tell me what you're gonna do
I need you to light the fuse
Tell me what you got to break down the walls
You just might need Dynamite

Got Dynamite?
Got Dynamite?
Got Dynamite?
Got Dynamite?

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7. Everytime You Lie

Title: Everytime You Lie

Artist: Demi Lovato

Album: Here We Go Again

la da da da da
da da da da
ooh ooh yeah

you told me on a sunday
that it wasn't ganna work
i tried to cry myself to sleep
cause it was supposed to hurt

we sat next to the fire
as the flame was burning out
i knew what you were thinking
before youd say it aloud

don't say you're sorry
cause i'm not even breaking
you're not worth the time that this is taking

i knew better
than to let you break my heart
this soul you'll never see again
won't be showing scars
oh no no

you still love her
i can see it in your eyes
the truth is all that i can hear
everytime you lie
everytime you lie

i woke up the next morning
with a smile on my face
and a long list of gentlemen
happy to take your place
less trashier much classier
then who you prove to be

how longs it ganna take before
you see that shes no me
oh no

i knew better
than to let you break my heart
the soul you'll never see again
won't be showing scars
oh no no

you still love her
i can see it in your eyes
the truth is all that i can hear
everytime you lie

at night, awake
i will be sleeping till morning breaks
that's the price you pay
for your mistakes
goodye to dreaming

so don't say you're sorry
cause i'm not gonna listen

i knew better
than to let you break my heart
the soul you'll never see again
won't be showing scars
oh no no

you still love her
i can see it in your eyes
the truth is all that i can hear
everytime you lie
ooh
everytime you lie

don't say you're sorry
ooh yeah
don't say you're sorry
oooh

the truth is all that i can hear
everytime you lie

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