Another depressing and miserable week has passed, got another one to go. *sigh*
I don't know why I'm being so depressed recently, things going complicated, and the people start teasing me EVERYDAY
I'm being bullied, I think, and for the first time too. No one ever dares to mess up with me, but I don't know who starts first (and I don't want to know either), but then a bunch of boys in my class start teasing me, making fun of me, like I'm an object that can be made fun of. I don't know if they are aware or not. I yelled to them, threatened them, even begged at them to stop terrorizing me. This is like a nightmare that keep haunting me every night.
You may think I'm over-emotional, but try to position yourself in my condition, you will see and feel how horrifying it is.
Even there's a boy that message me, just to tease me AGAIN (the school isn't enough, huh?), say that me and one of the boys in my class would make a nice couple. My blood pressure get higher, and it's just like ... I wanna punch him, right in his face. OH MY GOD?!
Don't you have eyes? Don't you have feeling? If you have, you shouldn't talk like that to me.
I know that he's joking, but that's offensive, you know?
I REALLY NEVER WANTED TO DATE ONE OF MY CLASS MATES, EVEN THOUGH MAYBE HE IS HANDSOME OR CLEVER!!.
If I don't want to date the handsome one, that's really obvious and ridiculous that I would date the "plain" type.
That joke is really offensive and I received it EVERYDAY. You know what? EVERYDAY!
Not just in week-days, but even in week-ends. It looks like terror to me, I can't just get relaxed even one day, one hour, one minute, or even one second
And you know why it is so offensive?, because beside we're really different and he's not even close enough to my "type", I'll feel a little "bitchy" when they say we would make a great couple. I'm not a play girl, ya know?
I'm in love with another "him", and I never can be in love with 2 different persons in the same time. If you say that "we" (even though I don't really like to state my name as "we") would make a nice couple, it would hurt me really bad, cause you can kill my feeling to another "him", slowly but surely.
End this terror please, I'm horrified, I'm scared, and I don't know how long can I stand this. Now, it makes me sad rather than angry. I don't have any energy to angry or yell at you guys. So next Monday, I just gonna stay quiet, not yelling back, ignore what you say, cry in my heart, and still believe that my feeling to "him" is much more stronger than the gossip and scandal you've made and made me involved in it.
Keep your head up, girl!
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