Gonna miss you, 2010~

Hi readers! Maybe it is my last post this year  *sigh* cause I'm gonna off for vacation tomorrow 'till January 3rd. Gotta enjoy it!
Yeah, it is almost the end of 2010 and I don't know why time flew very fast. It's just like yesterday I celebrated my birthday and now I'm gonna celebrate it again soon. I don't wanna to grow up quickly! But I should say, this year is such an amazing year for me! Every single year is extraordinary amazing even the upcoming year seems harder than this current year, but I still think, it will be extremely wonderful!

All I wanna say is... thanks God! You made my life sooooo amazing! I know life is not fair sometimes, but it's still good. I just realized, I often grumbling about little things, but I forget, that You've given me something that is more than enough. "You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, well you just might find you get what you need!" That's extremely true! Just gonna do some flashback and some self-introspection, I find that I've changed and improved this year. Well, that's a good start! And now...let's see my 2010 wish:
-Join the orchestra --->done :) I joined the orchestra as a violist
-Travel abroad ---> done :) Thanks to my mom and dad, love you sooooo much!
-New mobile phone ---> done :) Nokia E71, I like it!
-500 songs in my cellphone ---> done :) 511 songs for sure!
-Learn to play the guitar ---> Not done yet :(  add it to 2011 wish!
-50 followers in Twitter ---> done :) 59 followers and I still need more, wanna follow me?
-10 followers in blog ---> done :) Exactly 10 and I still need more...

Most of it are accomplished. *smile* and now here is my 2011 wish:
-iPod Touch
-750 songs in my cellphone
-Learn to play the guitar
-Travel abroad
-100 followers in Twitter
-20 followers in blog
-Still in the orchestra
-Improve my piano and violin skill
-Master the song "Turkish March" and remember it by heart
-Participate in OSN (Olimpiade Sains Nasional) English:National Science Olympic

So, that's it my 2011 wish, too much, isn't it? yeah, I know, especially the last one. But, don't give up and keep trying! Nothing is impossible, isn't it? Reach your dream :D
I need to get ready, have a nice holiday, and do the best to end this year. Hope 2010 will give you nice memory!

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Joyeux Noël!

There's something that I wanna say...
Have yourself a merry little Christmas! May your heart be filled with joy, happiness, and peace! Let the Christmas spirit grows and sparks in you!

Best wishes,

Sella Natassya

a.k.a Miss Unperfect

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My (Undone) Christmas Tree!

Yeah, I'm done with the Christmas tree and it didn't turn out really well. I'm not really good at decorating, you know :(  I haven't done with the living room, though...
But, I think it's not the most important part of Christmas. The most important thing is Jesus birth to this world, right?
So, let the Christmas spirit stay and spark in your heart :D

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Can't wait till Christmas!

Hey everyone! Just celebrated the awesomely awesome Christmas at my church! It was totally fun! There were some special performances, such as modern dance (ohhh...it was very cool! But..I prefer traditional ballet dance to modern hip hop dance) Then, after that the praise & worship session. Next, we heard the priest's lecture. The title was : "Do you love Jesus?" There are some characteristics if we love Jesus:

-Feeling guilty after commit a sin
Don't be like Adam or Eve that didn't want to confess their sin to God, but they blamed each other. Be like Peter. After he denied Jesus 3 times, he confessed his sin, he really regret it, and he cried. So, if we love Jesus, don't run if we already commit a sin. Go to Him, say sorry, confess, and don't repeat the same mistakes again :)

-Love each other
How can you love God, the invisible One, but you don't love your brother/sister who are visible? So, love God, love Jesus, love each other :D

-Feel happy to serve God
Don't think that serving God is a MUST. Think that, serving God is such a gift, a glory, and a chance for us to make Him happy, to make Him proud of us.

So, those are 3 signs that we love God very much. I love God even though sometimes it's hard for me to do such that things. But I'll try..I'll try my best. Do you?

And after we heard the priest's lecture, we watched the drama. The drama wasn't as good as my school's drama. It was too short and the acting wasn't really good. They were emotionless!
Finally, the gift-exchange session! We should collect our gifts in the middle of the room. And then, the MC counted: 1, 2, 3! We rushed to the middle and picked up our gifts! I took a small one, cause I thought a small one is better than the big one, that's just my opinion! And then, we opened that gift. I got a small clock! Not bad, I think..
Yeah, that was totally fun, can't wait till Christmas!!!!
P.S: I'm working on my Christmas tree, gotta upload the picture if I'm finished. Adieu!

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One semester has finished! Thanks God!!

1 semester has finished, I've got my report book and we've done the Christmas celebration. I'll tell it clearly and completely so this is gonna be a loooonnnnngggggg post. Hope you enjoy it!

CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION - BEHIND THE SCENE

 I didn't know that I was recruited in the school orchestra. As an amateur violist, I thought my skill wasn't enough to be in the orchestra. But Monday, after school, Yoel told me that I have to join the school orchestra for tomorrow's Christmas service and celebration. I was so surprised! The rehearsal would begin shortly and I didn't bring my violin to school! So I rushed home (luckily my home was close to school, about 10 minutes if you walk, 5 minutes if you run) And...I made it! I arrived back at school about 2-3 minutes before the rehearsal started! Not only the orchestra group that rehearsed, there were also the choir, the "guitar group", the 7th grade music group, the drama club, and so on...Everyone finished at 1 pm, but we, the orchestra member still have to practiced till 3 pm! Why? Mam Vita said the song pitch were too high that nobody can sing it! Well, that's not too high! So Mr Johan transposed it again, lowering 1 tone, then we practiced again. My body started to act strangely. I had a little stomachache and headache. But we HAVE to practice. The rehearsal finished at 3.30 pm and I went home. At home, I slept until 6 pm, took a hot shower (cause I didn't feel really well to take a cold shower), had dinner, tuned my violin (when I accidentally broke my G-string. Luckily I still had some strings and I could fix that), and then slept again. You know, I felt really sick and I was really afraid I couldn't perform tomorrow...

CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION - IT'S ON!

I woke up in the morning..and I felt completely good! Thanks God! Before the service started, we practiced first. Then, the service started. If I'm not mistaken, we played 5 songs during the service and 1 song during the celebration. There were:

-Joy to the world

-O Store God

-Go tell it on the mountain (It's a really 'country' song, I like it!)

-Joy to the world (Miss the rhythm, hope the audience didn't notice!)

-Hark the Herald Angels Sing

-Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas (It's my favorite song, it sounds a little 'jazzy'. Totally love it!)

I didn't know, why the whole class known me as a 'violist'. Actually I am a 'pianist' , not a 'violist'. But I think the pianist position has been taken, so I have to switch to violin. But no problem, I enjoy being a violist too!

After that, we watched the choir. The choir was pretty good. They sang:

-Carol of the Bells. (It's the Ukrainian carol and I love this song. Although this song sounded a little 'weird' or yeah, you know what) I tried to sing the soprano part, and I made it! Yeah! The highest note here is G5, it was really high, though. You can watch the video here. Or you can view the score here. Somehow, I really want to join the choir, but after I see the teacher, forget it! I stick with the orchestra! Lol!
-We're Marching in the Light of God 
It's a pretty song too, and I really like it! Actually it was an African song, but then it was translated to English. 
There was still 1 song, but I didn't know the title.

And then the guitar group with the song "Give Thanks". It was really good too. After that, the grade 7's music group with the song "He's Been Good". 

Now, the drama! The drama was totally....hell yeah....you know what. I can't express it with words! It was sooooooo funny! Too bad, mobile phones with camera are prohibited in my school so I couldn't take a picture or record it. The drama's title was "The Meaning of Christmas". So there were  a couple of girls that think Christmas is a day when we should have everything new, new clothes, new shoes, new bags, new boys (?) And finally, they realized the meaning of Christmas.


And then, my favorite part, the dance. It was a traditional Balinese dance, but it was really cool! After that, we watched the teacher's performance. Mr Yusuf's voice was very good! I never knew that P2's teacher have a really good voice!


Finally, English Club's performance collaborated with the kolintang. The English Club member performed a poem, about Christmas I think. I didn't pay too much attention to them though. So that, the Christmas celebration came to the end...


REPORT DISTRIBUTION 
   After the Christmas celebration, we returned to our class and got some souvenirs. After that, the report distribution started. I was really nervous!! The teacher gave me the report and I was so relieved. There were really good! Before, I thought there would be really bad. Yeah, really good, except 1 score. Physical Education! I only got 72! Yeah, I'm not good at sports, you know? 

That means, 1 semester has passed and the holiday is waiting for me now! Yeahhh!! Too bad we should go to school at Monday to return our report. Aargh...that's annoying! 

Well, I have to study harder next semester so I could continue my study in the good senior high school. Wish me luck, guys! And then, about my holiday plan...I've got a really fantastic plan for it and I can't wait till December 27th! Yeah, holiday trip guys! Bon Voyage!!

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Miss Unperfect

Yeah, this is my nickname and I love this nickname really much. It reminds me, that I can't be a perfect girl, I can't always get what I want, I'm unperfect...

Of course, this name has its own history. I've been tired acting like I'm the most perfect girl in the world. I've been sick of wearing the "mask of perfectness" everyday. I just want to show my true colors and that also mean, I need to get ready, ready to face those criticism, and other people's opinion about me. Based on my physiology test and based on my feeling, CRITICS and PEOPLE"S OPINION are my greatest fear. I don't know why. I hate to be called "you're ugly, you're not as smart as we think, you're overrated". So, that's why I always wear a mask when I go to school. I try to act perfectly, like a princess that doesn't have a single flaw. But now I realized, it's useless. It's better to show, who I am. 

• I can get angry easily
• I never can place myself in another people's position
• I can't never understand the others
• I'm too selfish
• I always want to get what I want
• I don't really like helping others
• I can get mad if somebody criticize me
• I never want to hear other people's opinion
• I always want to be the boss
• I'm careless
• I can forget things easily
• I always act like I'm the perfect one
• I hate it when someone is better than me
• I always want to be the best
• I'm hard to impress
• I have too high imagination
• I'm a dreamer
• I worry so much about myself
• I'm not a grateful person
• I like to judge another person by her/his physical appearance.
• I don't like being blamed
• I'm too indecisive

I hope you receive me, just the way I am, no need to pretending, I am not perfect. I hope all of you still wanna be friend with me. I know, I get really annoying sometimes. But I hope you understand me. Nobody's perfect, right? I'm sorry if I already being such an annoying and disturbing girl. I hope you forgive me...

 Unperfectness is such a gift, so we can keep trying our best to move closer to the word, "perfect" - Miss Unperfect

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A Letter of Apology

Dear girl,

I read your other blog, about HIM, about everything. I'm sorry for all of this, I never knew how you feel before, I'm sorry for tease you, I'm sorry for being such a bad friend that didn't know anything about her best friend's feeling.

You know what, I never like a boy like that! He is really mean, yeah, really mean! Treating girls like a toy, that he can play anytime he want to, and throw it away, anytime he get bored.

Trust me, I won't be an obstacle in your way, you're just WAY better than me. Again, I just wanna say sorry. And, this kind of problem won't make our precious friendship broken. Of course, I won't let him break our friendship too.

I hope you forgive me, and I hope our friendship still remains till forever...

Sincerely yours, 

~Your Best friend

A true friend is the greatest of all blessings

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H.O.L.I.D.A.Y!!!

HOLIDAY! It'll start next week after the Christmas celebration at my school and report distribution. I can't wait till holiday, and as you know, Christmas is my favorite event of the year, yeah, I like Christmas the most! Don't know why I love Christmas, but I find peace and joyfulness every time I celebrate Christmas. The atmosphere is also really good.
Christmas tree, hanging socks, everything is so wonderful! Just need to add snow and voila! It's a white Christmas! (Too bad Indonesia only has 2 seasons, not 4 seasons like countries in Europe and USA) Can't wait till Christmas and can't wait for the holiday!

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Fighting!!

I don't know why I always feel like this. It's like the evil keep whispering me 1 or 2 words that makes me uncomfortable. The evil keep whispering me things like this, "Just give up, Sella! You can't make it! You are the loser! Look at her, she's perfect, WAY BETTER than you! You can't be like her, you're such a loser!"

Yeah, something like that... I don't know why, maybe God is testing me this time. Every time I try to forget all those words, try to realize that I am special, try to get up, those words keep appearing in my mind. I can't make them go out of my mind!

I know, truly know, that everybody think I am special in my own way, but this crazy little evil keep bothering me! I need to fight! Yeah, keep fighting! But of course, I need somebody to help me...Anybody, who read this post, can you support me? Just comment below my posting and say "Keep fighting, Sella!!" Well, maybe that's too childish, isn't it? But, all I need is support from a lot of people. It's just a little thing, but it will be really matter for me

Please. if you don't mind, can you say things like that? But if you don't want, it's alright, it's okay...

I need a little time to just trust myself, and be sure I can defeat those little evil! 

Sella, FIGHTING!! :)

Got a special song that maybe matches my condition, or maybe yours, hope you enjoy:

Title: Beautiful

Artist: Christina Aguilera

Everyday is so wonderful, then suddenly,its hard to breath
Now and then I get insecure, from all the pain
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring me down oh nooo!
So don't you bring me down today

No no no no hmmmm

To all your friends you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Tryin  hard to fill that emptiness,
The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone
Ain't that the way it is?

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down oh noo no no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring you down oh nooo
So don't you bring me down today

Choir
No matter what we do (No matter what we do)
No matter what we say (No matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune (yeah yeah oh yeaaah)
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go (and everywhere we go)
the sun will always shine (the sun will always always shine)
And tomorrow we might awake on the other side

Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes words won't bring us down (oh no)
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes words can't bring us down (oooooh)
So don't you bring me down today
Ohh yeaaah .. oooh
Don't you bring me down today
Heaaaay yeaaaaah .. oooh
Don't you bring me down
Today

We are beautiful in every single way

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Popular??

Maybe it's not a serious problem for some teen girls, but for me it is a pretty big problem.. Yeah, I've always want to be popular, not from a bad side of course, but it's hard to be popular, isn't it? The more I chase it, the more it goes away from me. Maybe it sounds a little mean and it seems that I'm a little jealous, but truly, I am. Sometimes I want to be like "them". "Them" here refers to many people lol! I want to be as beautiful as her, I want to be as smart as her, I want to be as popular as her, I want to be well-known like her, I want to be as confident as her, I want many things! Just think about it, I just said one of the popular girls and almost all class knew her, even the boys. What about me? Hopeless ==. When will I become popular?
Then, I just realized something from this song....and of course, it gave me an answer that I needed most

Title: Just the Way You Are

Artist: Bruno Mars

Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are(yeah)

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
The way you are, the way you are
Girl you're amazing, just the way you are

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. Yeah

I am amazing, just the way I am...This song made me realize, even I am not perfect, even I am not popular, even I am not beautiful, the world around me still love me, just the way I am...
My friends still think I am amazing, my family still think I am wonderful, and God still think I am the most precious one in His heart. Now my question has been answered.

We are amazing, just the way we are...

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Holiday...come sooner please...

Still got 2 weeks before the holiday. I'm sick of school and I need to have a break, but my lovely school seems not understand about my feeling. And yeah, you know, those crazy tests are still waiting for me (?) And then my friends and I still have to present our project about the orphanage (read my previous post), I still have to join the science competition next Sunday, and then the competition between classes will be held next week. And then, the most important part, report distribution! I'm not ready for this! My scores in Grade 8 are totally bad! TOTALLY! God, help me please...
But the most important thing, holiday, come sooner please....

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IT"S OVER!!

Final test is over! The last day was biology and it was freakin' hard! Yes, totally hard test. Although I've studied for 2 days (yeah, it wasted my weekend) I still found some problems and difficulties in those test. But of course, I am not free yet, there are still some examinations from the government, special for bilingual student ONLY. Gosh..this is not over, wish me luck guys!

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Living in a Fairytale!

Do you believe in fairytale? Many people don't, but I do. Even I live in a fairytale. Yeah, life itself is a most wonderful ~..Fairytale..~.
You'll never knew what will happen next, but actually I believe, everyone in this world will have their unique "happy ending" which is different one another.
Fairytale is full of surprise, so is my life. I'll never knew that I would meet her, meet him, or meet them. Life is unpredictable and also..magical. Life is also..full of different possibilities, nothing is impossible in this life. Maybe you think, it is impossible for Cinderella, a maid, can meet such a handsome prince and marry with him. But, what happened? She turned to the most beautiful princess in those kingdom and married the Prince. I believe, truly believe, that my simple life can turn to the most interesting adventure that I've ever been! Nothing is impossible, right?
You know, I really enjoy my life, my adventure, and this amazing fairytale. How about you??

Life itself is a most wonderful fairytale - Hans Christian Andersen

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Final Test!! I hate you so much!

Sorry for long update guys! Blame my crazy school and those crazy tests!

So final tests are here guys! I don't know why did the time fly really fast.. It just like yesterday I was in grade 8, mid terms, and now final terms! Almost 1 semester has finished.. Ohh...it's just like I want to become 8th grader forever! Become a 9th grader? NOO!!  Full of assignments, and of course, National Examination..

~Back to the topic~

On Monday, we had English and IT test. Not very hard I guess, but I just made several mistakes, my bad..

On Tuesday, we had...Physics and Religion! Physics was very difficult! The teacher hasn't explain about gas pressure and it made me really confused. Luckily, there were only few questions about it. I think, the important part was about the Archimedes Law, especially the Buoyant Force cause I didn't really get it.. Well, I don't care about my score anymore, just hope for the best..

On Wednesday, we had Mandarin and Bahasa Indonesia test. Today's test wasn't very hard, but the Bahasa Indonesia test was pretty confusing

On Thursday, the real battle started! Today's test was a little harder than the other test..ahh..wish me luck!

Today...the real battle reached its climax! Mathematics and Civil. No problem with civil, but..the mathematics...made me wanna die.

I thought the hardest part was equation of line, so I studied equation of line seriously but I didn't pay much attention to Pythagoras Theorem and the Simultaneous Equation with 2 variables. But I was wrong! The equation of line wasn't really hard, but the other materials were really hard! Especially the Pythagoras one! No problem with the essay, just made 1 silly mistakes..guess I only can get 80, not bad I think..

And now, next Monday I will have Biology test..I'm not ready yet! 6 chapters! Oh man, I guess I really wanna die...

P.S: After the final test, we still have some test from the government, FOR BILINGUAL STUDENT ONLY!

Gosh...somehow I really hate to be the bilingual student. Tons of tests and assignments...

Well, just a few more days and I'll be free...

Wish me luck!

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